can i be vulgar on this forum?
absolutely, i insist. vulgar is good. (it is unedited)
just a story?
it's everything i have.
Now i'm going to be vulgar.
HA, Ha, ha ! ah, ha ha ha, ho ho ho!!
That's great. The truest word you have ever said. (and you didn't know it)
Fantastic ! You just exposed your anchor. This is what is keeping you from SEEING reality.
You can see why there is resistance Now, can't you ?
There is fear that without the story Bartek gets annihilated. Without the story Bartek evaporates.
Ok, This is all WHO has ? Why, Bartek of course.
But Bartek is real only as a character in the story (ego).
So what was that statement again ? "it's everything I have"
Ok, let's rephrase that and keep the same meaning...
The Story (with Bartek as the main character) is EVERYTHING the main character in the Story has.
Now, listen to me. Stories are not the problem !
Believing them is.
Thinking that the character in the story IS you, that's the problem.
That's also the answer.
RE-COGNISE IT and were done!
Stories are like raincoats.
You put a raincoat on when you need it.
You temporarily adopt a story when circumstances require it. But you know that the character in the story is a fiction.
You can write new stories at whim.
In fact, If you watch your thoughts RIGHT NOW you can see them busy writing a script.
If it happens in the background then todays writings will simply get appended to the bottom of the main Bartek story.
If you're a wake up to what is happening, then you get a chance to write really good scripts.
For instance, ever since awakening, i have been aware that a script where there would be no self-consciousness, no embarrassment here even if a need to adress a large audience arose. That it would be done exquisitely, automatically.
I like to keep scripts in event size bits. That way i can mix and match to suit different situations. i don't use old scripts much anymore as they feel pretty uncomfortable. But hey, new ones are being written with every thought.