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by Maitrivajra
Thu Apr 06, 2017 8:14 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! Then there was the thought that I should instead ask somewhat modified forms of these questions that seem to work better for me. Please keep this up and modify exercises as feels appropriate. Throughout the walk, there were a lot of thoughts about how I'm screwed up and am failing at the ...
by Maitrivajra
Wed Apr 05, 2017 8:19 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! The point, really, is the question ‘Who gets anxious in these circumstances?’ “I” doesn’t need to come into existence in order to make a decision of this kind – whether or not to take Xanax. Yes, I get it. Fantastic! :-) Let’s go a bit deeper with this then. I said ‘“I” doesn’t need to co...
by Maitrivajra
Tue Apr 04, 2017 8:09 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! Intellectually, I know that there is nothing to fear Knowing this, fear may – or may not – still arise in direct experience. It did before, so why not now? I don't like turbulence on planes - I actually bring Xanax on long flights in case it gets really bad. So, on a long turbulent flight...
by Maitrivajra
Mon Apr 03, 2017 5:14 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob,
Just to let you know that I will be on retreat this weekend so will not be able to respond to you on Saturday and Sunday and hope that's OK?
M
by Maitrivajra
Mon Apr 03, 2017 8:56 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! ---I'm not sure. Its similar to the anxiety that arises when I sit down to meditate. I think its a fear what might happen if I relax and let go. I asked you earlier in our dialogue about what evidence you have that there is anything to fear and you mentioned the rare occasions when you’ve...
by Maitrivajra
Sun Apr 02, 2017 9:47 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! ----I have problems doing experiential exercises like this one - I become anxious and its difficult to focus on the exercise. Almost like a kind of performance anxiety. This anxiety is interesting – as though you feel there is a correct answer and you might get it wrong? In this case, my ...
by Maitrivajra
Sat Apr 01, 2017 9:11 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! I am well, thank you, and hope you are too. :-) -----I can see that thoughts just arise. But, as usual, one of the arising thoughts is that there is a me that can create thoughts. No need to answer, I know that you've pointed out that that thought is also arising without a me! Ha ha! Yes,...
by Maitrivajra
Fri Mar 31, 2017 8:25 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! --I found this somewhat difficult, because many of my thoughts are very indistinct. A lot of them are images briefly arising- I experience those as little pieces or blips. Sometimes my mind wanders down a particular thought path and I get lost in it. Then I "come to" and return to the pre...
by Maitrivajra
Thu Mar 30, 2017 8:10 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! There seems to be the strong recurring thought that if I can't prove to myself intellectually that there is no I, that I will never be able to experience it. That it doesn't make sense to try to experience something if its not an accurate description of objective reality. But I realize th...
by Maitrivajra
Wed Mar 29, 2017 8:22 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! 'I want you to spend the rest of the day pretending that there is no “me” and no “agency”.' ---I have been doing that and will continue for the rest of the day . Can you report back about this, please? I think that getting the conceptual stuff off my chest (I'm probably not quite done yet...
by Maitrivajra
Tue Mar 28, 2017 8:38 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! Thanks for this post and for putting what’s going on for you so clearly. Have a look at this YouTube clip by Sam Harris – which tackles the intellectual (rather than Zen / Advaita) exploration to no-self and which may be useful: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fajfkO_X0l0&t=65s Francis Lu...
by Maitrivajra
Mon Mar 27, 2017 7:02 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! Sorry for the delay in responding. I would normally hope to give warning if that was going to happen. 1. A thought arises that "I" will try to test to see whether I can visualize a specific object. 2. Shortly after that, an image of an object arises. Yes! And the apparent connection betwe...
by Maitrivajra
Mon Mar 27, 2017 9:01 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob!

Had a good weekend, thanks. I had to go away unexpectedly and am still travelling so will respond more fully later today.

M
by Maitrivajra
Sun Mar 26, 2017 9:57 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! -- Yes, I would say that. Sometimes, when tension arises, it seems like its just floating in space. Even when it arises in a region that seems associated with part of my body (e.g. my stomach at the moment), the idea that its "in my stomach" is really a mental conclusion, not an experienc...
by Maitrivajra
Sat Mar 25, 2017 9:11 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Looking forward to this!
Replies: 160
Views: 9602

Re: Looking forward to this!

Hello Bob! --It's interesting. When the tension or anxiety appears to arise in a very localized part of my body (like my fingers or mouth), I associate it with that body part. It’s easy to put labels onto experience, “my” finger, “my” mouth. Is this the same sort of label as “Bob”? Is “Bob” just a l...

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