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by ardi44
Fri Apr 22, 2016 1:27 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? There was never. The feeling of something being separate was caused and perpetuated by thoughts. It felt extremely real until it was seen from a different angle. 2) Explain in detail what th...
by ardi44
Tue Apr 19, 2016 8:40 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hey Ilona. There difference between seeing and thinking is huge. It's a difference between knowing and getting a new belief. Which is it? I think at one point I fluctuated between seeing and thinking, but when I investigate my experience honestly, it's just obvious there is no me. But because of how...
by ardi44
Fri Apr 15, 2016 12:52 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

In addition to my experience, there is more flow/intuition. That is what has changed as a result of the shift the most. But as I said, same thoughts, however more intuitive intelligence with thinking.
by ardi44
Fri Apr 15, 2016 12:23 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

It feels very weird to answer this question. Is the "I" an illusion? If illusion means for something to appear real but not actually be real then, I think so. I can't find that magical controller or self. I think I couldn't even find it before, I just believed it was real just like Santa. But at the...
by ardi44
Fri Apr 15, 2016 11:08 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hey Ilona. In your experience, what does the word I point to? Where is the I located? What does the I do? The word "I" in my experience simply points to a thought about myself, which of course, is another thought. The "I" in my experience I feel, is simply a thought used for navigation. In reality t...
by ardi44
Mon Apr 11, 2016 7:37 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hi Ilona! Sorry for not replying for so long without any notice, I just sort of gave up on this. But I still, I have been guided by a person on facebook who I believe made me look into my direct experience. And really, I am not sure if this is it. If this is the so called "awakening" I've been looki...
by ardi44
Mon Oct 19, 2015 2:06 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

There is no me, no I, no separate self. Have a look. Don't think it should be or shouldn't be, just look, what does this I supposedly do and how would life look if there really wasn't an I in charge? I feel like this sense of I is needed to make choices, to function, to relate. I'm not sure how lif...
by ardi44
Sun Oct 18, 2015 7:49 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hi Ilona. Do you onow what the next thought will be before it arrives? No, not specifically, but there is a feeling/idea of what the next thought may be. So vaguely, it seems I have some idea of what my next thought will be, but can't know for sure. Can you stop a thought from coming? It depends fro...
by ardi44
Fri Oct 16, 2015 9:35 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

I am not sure how to answer. It just feels as if I initiate thoughts or impulses. I wish I could go into more detail but I'm not good at articulating what I feel.

Ardi
by ardi44
Thu Oct 15, 2015 9:26 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Well I'm not sure. It feels like I am a distinct person with control, but in theory this is BS. So I have to doubt this. I don't know who or what I am.

Ardi
by ardi44
Thu Oct 15, 2015 7:23 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

If there is no self then, who the hell really am I? That's what comes up mostly.
And, "this is going to be difficult"

Ardi
by ardi44
Wed Oct 14, 2015 12:16 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Re: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hey Ilona. So what do you expect from this seeing through illusion ? What should be, feel, appear different? What do you expect to happen? I don't really know. I guess there will be a shift of prespective from a "me" living life to life is just happening. I expect that my questions that are beyond n...
by ardi44
Wed Sep 30, 2015 10:14 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.
Replies: 24
Views: 4867

Requesting Ilona as a guide if possible.

Hey. Been seeking for truth for about 2 years and 4 months. In the beginning my search involved the intellectual understanding of things. These past months I've been focused more on the truth that can be experienced directly. I believe that life is happening to me. That these body part belong me. I ...

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