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by ixturtle
Wed Feb 12, 2014 4:42 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

with the recognition that i'm lost in emotion, comes the recognition that habit still asserts itself. Not that i must be identifying with a self. This is helpful. There is still a story that "seeing" hasn't really happened, but regardless, seeing the apparent assertion of identification with "self"...
by ixturtle
Fri Feb 07, 2014 3:48 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Everything is an idea, except what is happening now. ..and that becomes an idea the moment it is thought about. What is it the Ix seeks ? i would describe this pot as having a few small bubbles around the edges and i guess what the pot "wants" is a rolling boil that spills right on out of the pot! ...
by ixturtle
Sun Feb 02, 2014 6:21 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Is it possible to be aware of the expectations, the fact that the expectations exist, without getting lost in the emotional responses to them ? certainly, and by degree. there's a lot less expectation than once experienced and that which remains doesn't tug like it used to. almost didn't come back ...
by ixturtle
Sun Feb 02, 2014 2:00 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Investigating this. "penetration" suggests a story about something changing something. It suggests the idea of a possible outcome ? What is SEEn when you look here ? Yes, I suppose it does. There is an expectation that perception will change, like a filter (mind) being taken off a camera lens such ...
by ixturtle
Thu Jan 30, 2014 11:47 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Hm, (story here says) there might be very low expectations. Yes, that's perhaps true. On the other hand, as mush as a cloud has descended in terms of much of what seemed clear to me before, it also doesn't feel very far away nor do i feel very needy about it. It does appear difficult for me to show...
by ixturtle
Sat Jan 25, 2014 3:03 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Apologies for dropping off the radar screen. You once (or twice) have told me not to worry about timing (time = story) but nevertheless, I feel grateful to you for picking this string up again and don't want to appear half-hearted. That said, Half-hearted is, however, how I've been feeling!!!! ha ha...
by ixturtle
Mon Jan 20, 2014 9:46 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

Re: ix take 2

Is not the thought also experience ? of course. with or without thought, there is only experience. thought tends to distract or distort the experiencing of experience though, yes? Are they wired into the emotional responses or are the emotional responses the result of the belief Without the belief,...
by ixturtle
Fri Jan 17, 2014 4:13 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: ix take 2
Replies: 16
Views: 1559

ix take 2

Hi vince-- (Adding below the last couple back and forths for continuity sake.) The process of being aware happens at an organism level. The assumption (that its personal) is an overlay. LOOK and tell me if this is so for ix ? Been sitting with this on and off all day. The thought arises, "even witho...
by ixturtle
Mon Jul 29, 2013 3:19 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

Did you have stories about what that might mean ? A couple times I wondered what might be happening on your side of the pond-- sick?, just busy? moving on?-- but just passing thoughts. no story here about anything wrong or right, no weight to it-- though there's a general preference for you being w...
by ixturtle
Fri Jul 26, 2013 3:58 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

Once again this meat sack awaits response instead of plucking away, the latter of which has proven to be more beneficial (at least within the story of waking up). Not sure how to shake that pattern up. There is quite a bit of shifting and moving here, in fits and spurts and then subsequent vacuums. ...
by ixturtle
Sat Jul 20, 2013 7:14 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

have been all over the place this week, literally and figuratively, but the one thing that landed from the blog was how ridiculous it is to take this identity personally-- as if "I" had anything to do with its DNA, with its conditioning. when that sunk in (which it seems to have to do a 1,000 times)...
by ixturtle
Mon Jul 15, 2013 4:34 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

No choice, No decisions, No control. Just automatic happenings. Seems to be an automatic happening that just as things start to drop in, this meat sack drops out. Have made it 3/4 of the way through the piece you sent me to read. I think the aggressive (kinda like Jed) tone doesn't resonate so much...
by ixturtle
Wed Jul 10, 2013 3:22 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

So if the mind is seen for what it is, an overlay on what is real (sometimes useful, often deleterious), but ever present, then what more is required to be able to recognise the Real ? Nothing, I suppose... the mind imagines (begat of story, as you say) that there must be something it is missing. b...
by ixturtle
Sun Jul 07, 2013 9:14 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

Can there be any use for (blah blah blah)? Can it be any more or less useful than the wind blowing or the sun shining ? Is there a relationship between usefulness and meaning ? Is cause and effect involved here ? The only answer that stands a chance of being remotely true is that the blah blah blah...
by ixturtle
Sat Jul 06, 2013 6:43 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Ready to dive in...
Replies: 520
Views: 33473

Re: Ready to dive in...

Does it permeate ? It's more like a mild skin irritation at the moment really... an itch that I easily forget but when things are quiet calls my attention-- if the mind is not a reliable barometer then what is the use of all this blah blah blah? if nothing i could possible think is reliable, then a...

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