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by Ilona
Mon Sep 21, 2020 8:35 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 204
Views: 10370

Re: Freedom Now

Thank you for sharing your process, it gives me a clear idea where you are. At this stage all is normal, all as it should be. The mind has already recognised the emptiness of I as an entity, so there is no what back. The rest will unfold in time. It is good to remember, that this flipping in and out...
by Ilona
Mon Sep 21, 2020 7:12 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: No self inquiry
Replies: 23
Views: 524

Re: No self inquiry

Yes yes yes. It’s like taking the attention of the narrative about what is happening to the actual happening and being fully immersed in whatever is here. The narrative can continue and it does so by itself, only it’s no longer believed.. Here is my latest video to help to drive the point home. http...
by Ilona
Sun Sep 20, 2020 7:13 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: I need help
Replies: 2
Views: 127

Re: I need help

Dear friend, thanks for reaching out for help. I hear you and we can chat here. Please don’t give up on life just yet. There is a reason, why such strong experiences happen. Some call it the dark night of the soul and it is not unusual to want to die in such a place. It may seem, that darkness will ...
by Ilona
Sat Sep 19, 2020 5:28 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: looking for clarity
Replies: 396
Views: 33662

Re: looking for clarity

Dear Arus, wonderful idea. I think it’s exactly what you need, to let go of this forum, of this conversation for a time being and explore your experience.

Yes, it’s the same okayiness. And some things come up that feel uncomfortable and even that is ok. :)

I’ll speak to you in a month!
Love.
by Ilona
Sat Sep 19, 2020 5:23 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: No self inquiry
Replies: 23
Views: 524

Re: No self inquiry

Ok, my friend, take your time and do the exercise with full focus.

Love.
by Ilona
Sat Sep 19, 2020 5:21 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Freedom Now
Replies: 204
Views: 10370

Re: Freedom Now

Wow. I hear you. Yes, there can be a massive disappointment as it’s not what was expected. It’s ok, this will pass. Allow all to be as it is. It’s all part of your process. Trust that all is as it should be and continue to keep attention on what is here. This is a beginning. And yes there is more wo...
by Ilona
Sat Sep 19, 2020 2:33 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Not all who wander are lost
Replies: 18
Views: 279

Re: Not all who wander are lost

Hi Oly Thanks for update. What you describe sounds wonderful. Crumbling down and meeting life freshly, is delicious. Nice that the shifting experience is settling in. The love of my Guru, do I have to let that go? Is that not true if it led me here??? Hm, well, you can’t tell love not to flow. It’s ...
by Ilona
Sat Sep 19, 2020 2:26 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Aware Wolf Thread Title Here
Replies: 20
Views: 645

Re: Aware Wolf Thread Title Here

Thank you very much for a thoughtful answer. It resonates that there is no CEO self and that awareness is like a verb. You wouldn’t say that everything is one, ok, there are different, unique forms and functions. We can see that. It’s not that a spoon and soup is one and the same. But in essence the...
by Ilona
Thu Sep 17, 2020 6:42 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic
Replies: 42
Views: 1601

Re: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic

Thank you for reply. I am the energy that has been moving since the beginning of time and can never die. My energy has manifested in stars, planets, space dust, rocks, single cell e coli, dinosaurs, salamanders, birds, apes, other human beings and currently, this body/mind complex. I'm a unique grou...
by Ilona
Thu Sep 17, 2020 6:32 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: No self inquiry
Replies: 23
Views: 524

Re: No self inquiry

Thank you for taking time to work with the sutra and your report. Let’s look at what is this observer thingy. It is language itself, that creates a subject out of nothing, so we get a doer. A doer of observing we call observer. But there is observing. Seeing, recognising, being aware - verbs. Seer, ...
by Ilona
Thu Sep 17, 2020 6:19 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: looking for clarity
Replies: 396
Views: 33662

Re: looking for clarity

I think I understand what you are saying about "ABSOLUTELY no controller", and to some extent I understand what you mean by there is ALWAYS safety Let’s see what is happening here. You either see it or not. I invite you to focus in present actuality and look, is there a controller here now? Going i...
by Ilona
Wed Sep 16, 2020 9:52 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic
Replies: 42
Views: 1601

Re: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic

ego is in the mind/body. It believes it's in charge of my survival. It makes me suffer my feelings. It makes me feel upset with my life. It makes me think that I'm a person with stories that need to be learned to survive. Good news, there is no ego, as a controller, that can do any such things. The...
by Ilona
Wed Sep 16, 2020 7:47 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Truth and Freedom
Replies: 34
Views: 1564

Re: Truth and Freedom

That’s good to notice, mind want to protect.. now let’s find out, is it helping? What does the mind get from trying to protect? And what is there behind the protection that needs it? Can you take a look and tell me, what is there? Would you rather be free and at ease or scared of life? Does life nee...
by Ilona
Wed Sep 16, 2020 6:53 am
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: looking for clarity
Replies: 396
Views: 33662

Re: looking for clarity

Or are you suggesting there is ABSOLUTELY no control, you can study for the exam or not, it has no impact on how you do in the exam? You see, I get confused if I take your statement to the limit. I’m saying there is ABSOLUTELY no controller. Never was. You study of exam or not- it either happens or...
by Ilona
Mon Sep 14, 2020 5:52 pm
Forum: THE GATE
Topic: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic
Replies: 42
Views: 1601

Re: Fed up with seeking so... Seeking Guide... Ironic

Interesting story. But is it more than a story? Does it have a proof of that? Man made control sounds like there is someone here pulling the stings and makes life go one what or another. Is that true? Where is this ego, that is manipulating life? Can you pin point it? What is ego in control of right...

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