Yes, it’s more challenging as thinking process is not examined usually. So with behavior that is not (entirely) repetitive, thoughts are not necessary to control the behavior; at least not always. look closer here. When and what thoughts actually control? You say not always, I invite you to find out...

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So, where are you at your search?
What are you looking for and what are you looking at?
What do you notice? What questions you ask?

I can’t give you pointers if I don’t get a feel of where you are at. So guide me :)

Love.

Good stuff. Now let’s look at thinking. Are you making thoughts appear or are they showing up? Can you make thoughts disappear? Is thinking thoughts different from seeing colours, hearing sounds, tasting? Can you think only beautiful, pleasant thoughts if you decide so? Is there a seer of thoughts a...

Thank you for expressing clearly what is going on. Please do not try to convince yourself of anything! No separate self is a pointer, that points to something in experience, it’s not to be taken as a belief. Yes, the knowing is not bound. Let’s look at what is bound? Is a person bound to a story? Is...

Thank you for sharing how you feel. I hear you and I agree, it’s not a fun way to live. In a way it feels like I am never fully IN the experience that is actually occuring. There is some part of me that is removed or dissociated from whatever is happening. All the time. It's not so much that I am se...

Great work. Let’s look at taste next. Have something to eat. Take a bite. Experience the taste. In the actual experience, are you making taste appear or is it showing up? Is taste controllable? Can you adjust taste to your liking? Can you not like the taste? Describe the taste in as many words as yo...

Well, you can’t become nobody. And why would you want to become nobody? What would be benefit of that? In a way what you are saying is this I am a drop and I want to become water. How do I become water? Well, what is this drop’s essence? You have to sit down and seriously consider, that there is not...

I hear you. Wanting to be liberated, seeking for something else but this. Where is that wanting coming from? Are you doing it, are you making it happen or is it a happening too? What or who is aware of wanting? And can you focus on that wanting to get liberated and look at the raw sensation of it. W...

Take your time and explore.
Yes, it’s not about great experiences or bliss forever, but about being at peace with what is as it is.

Love.

Good question, what’s next? What are you hoping for? Where are you trying to arrive and what is incomplete right now?

Love.

Ok, are you seeing that sensation or is that sensation seeing you? Are you aware of that sensation or is it aware of you? Is that sensation an object or a subject? Let’s take baby steps. No rush to get anywhere, all we are doing is looking at experience and describing what is seen. Write more often ...

I completely agree with you, that pretending is not helpful at all. This investigation requires full honesty and seeing what is as it is, not pretending and lying to yourself about what is seen. This seeing does not deny or erase Eric. It does not deny character, or makes illusions disappear. Nothin...

Great work, thank you. Yes, I am not the mind or thoughts. So I should remain aware of their fictitious nature as these thoughts arise, just as I remain aware when watching a scary movie that it is not real. Is that what you are getting at? Yes, that’s it. You are not thoughts, you are not imaginary...

Wonderful. Thanks for looking and describing. Let’s continue with sensations we call body. Sense of touch. What information do you get from touch alone? Without memory and thinking, what is there when hand touches a wall? The sense of bum on a chair? The sense of hand touching hand? Examine raw sens...

Thank you for sharing your insights. There is no effort in hearing a sound, but I can change my focus from one sound to another which seems an effort. This is interesting. Can you look closer how you do that? Is changing focus something you do or something that happens, that arises? Is it you changi...