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by GeraldF
Mon Apr 06, 2015 8:50 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
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Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello Ilona. Here are my responses: 1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me', 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? There has never been a “me” in reality. “Me” only exists in telling the story of life. The only thing that’s real is what’s right here and right now. 2) E...
by GeraldF
Sun Apr 05, 2015 3:29 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Happy Easter, Ilona!

I've been rereading my thread and pondering – and yes, I think I'm ready for the Final Questions. It sounds so ominous!

So much appreciation to you... feeling a little teary with love and gratitude.

Gerald.
by GeraldF
Fri Apr 03, 2015 12:07 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello there, Ilona. I was just preparing an update for you when I received your post! when you say I, what does this word refer to? “I” think that was just a convention of language in that usage: “I can even let that criticism be as it is.” It doesn’t take personal willpower to let something be as i...
by GeraldF
Wed Apr 01, 2015 8:31 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Wow, Ilona, you really know how to ask the most powerful questions. Thank you for these pointers. Obviously I don’t know what is in control. It’s so reassuring to hear that “Everything that shows up is part of the process. Can it be otherwise?” That brings immediate relaxation. Today I’ve been notic...
by GeraldF
Tue Mar 31, 2015 9:46 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello there, dear Ilona. You asked if I have any doubts… If the goal is to see/feel the immediacy of what’s here and now, and to recognise that “I” is not in control, I do see that. Would that qualify as being “pushed over the edge?” I can’t say I recognise this 51% of the time, which to me would qu...
by GeraldF
Mon Mar 30, 2015 1:38 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Good day, Ilona. Hope you're well! Your questions today are really removing all the supports of language and concepts. Taking away language, it comes down to this bare moment. It’s just a matter of sticking with what’s right here/right now. I guess this is the core of the explanation I’ve heard: “Th...
by GeraldF
Fri Mar 27, 2015 8:48 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Okay, I think I get this. Non-duality is pointing to the fact that there’s just one thing… perceiving. No one doing it. No need for “awareness.” Just everything appearing as perceiving. Now I’d just like to give an overview to clarify my understanding at this point. When perceiving the ever-changing...
by GeraldF
Thu Mar 26, 2015 5:00 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Thank you for these questions. I’d really love to get some clarity on these points, which have caused me long-term puzzlement. Now let's see, does the openness care what shows up in it? Does aware presence care if you accept what is happening or not? When I thought shows up, does that thought care w...
by GeraldF
Wed Mar 25, 2015 7:02 pm
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Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

After my second post yesterday, when I outlined my reactions to a period of anxiety, these uncomfortable feelings have felt more manageable – less like they can take over and dominate. I was on a long bus ride earlier today. Looking out the window, my thoughts were neutral and it was clear no “I” wa...
by GeraldF
Wed Mar 25, 2015 12:48 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello again, Ilona. I just had a wave of anxiety, and I’d like to share my understanding with you, because dealing with these uncomfortable feelings seems to be a roadblock for me and I’d like to clear it up. It’s clear that “I” didn’t cause the anxiety to arrive, and “I” can’t make it leave on comm...
by GeraldF
Wed Mar 25, 2015 12:02 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello Ilona. I’m checking in! is the voice in the head = the I speaking? In the past, I have definitely equated the voice in the head with “I”. But really, the voice in the head is just a stream of thoughts. And by believing the thoughts, I have been believing in an “I”. what is it that is listening...
by GeraldF
Mon Mar 23, 2015 9:15 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Thank you for continuing to push me with these powerful questions, Ilona. I think “I” am starting to crack… I was working this morning, then started randomly looking on the Internet, and a critical thought came up, saying: “I shouldn’t be doing that.” I felt my body cringe a little, like it was bein...
by GeraldF
Sun Mar 22, 2015 4:20 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Hello Ilona. Can you look back now and describe, what has hasn't changed and what looks different since we started this conversation. In normal everyday ordinary activities, is anything different? One thing that’s different is that I’m focusing on these questions a lot! I am much clearer intellectua...
by GeraldF
Fri Mar 20, 2015 8:43 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Thank you for your questions, Ilona, and for pushing me to look. I can see that I’ve had expectations about frustration and tension going away with this understanding. The response of stress just seems to be part of the current nature of this “me”. Maybe the programming will change. But that’s not d...
by GeraldF
Thu Mar 19, 2015 2:59 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Thread for Gerald.
Replies: 61
Views: 5247

Re: Thread for Gerald.

Dear Ilona, My thoughts of the day… See if you can soften up, relax a bit. I’ve been paying attention to this suggestion to relax – thanking and welcoming emotions. I’ve been asking myself while doing various activities, “Does this take any effort?” It’s apparent that the answer is No. When you ask ...

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